So I watched the Freddie Flintoff documentary about his bulimia.
I found it so relatable, but it’s also made me question myself. I have had issues with my food all my life. From being a skinny child who wouldn’t eat. To gradually gaining weight and then being overweight when I discovered alcohol.
I developed an eating disorder in my early 20s with anorexia and then bulimia. But like in Freddie’s case I was never treated for them. I have had relapses but I think when I had my kids in my head I was cured. Especially as I gained weight and although I was very unhappy with my weight gain I never went back to making myself sick.
As I am very fond of mentioning I’ve lost 66lbs and I did this a very healthy way. I still feel a lot of guilt surrounding food and if I don’t exercise I feel guilt about that. I also have issues with my belly fat and it’s the one thing that I’ll never be happy with. After watching Freddie’s documentary it’s made me question if this is all linked to my past eating disorder. I also exercised like crazy when I was in my early 20s.
The way I am now I do not feel is a negative thing. I’m happy, healthy and although I’m obsessive about exercise I feel it is a positive thing.
But it has made me question that if I’d been taught about nutrition, macros and micronutrients when at school and learnt what I should be doing to have the figure that I was so obsessed with getting would I have done it the unhealthy way. I know eating disorders are about control but I’d have had control just in a healthier way.
I think Freddie Flintoff was very brave and honest making this documentary. I think it takes a lot to open yourself up to the public like that about an issue that’s so personal.
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