I’ve been thinking about starting a blog for a while. Not because I think I’m incredibly interesting, but because I find it cathartic to write my issues down and if my journey can help anyone then I’m happy to share it.
I am currently in training for the London Marathon, am I a good runner – No, do I enjoy running – Yes when it’s finished. But the running and the calorie counting helped me lose 66lbs and go from a size 20 to a size 8-10 (sometimes a 12) depending on where I buy my clothes. This was all extremely life changing for me as I go on and on about on my fitnessbore Instagram and Facebook account.
I will go in to this all in more detail and probably drive anyone who bothers to read this mad (I’m not sorry). What I want to talk about today is my anxiety. Today I had an article published so far in the Sheffield Star and The Metro documenting the journey we have all been through as a family and hopefully helping me raise money for The Sheffield Children’s Hospital. This is a good positive thing, nothing bad about it, but all I have is a huge knot of anxiety and my brain going at 100 miles an hour saying but what if this happens and what if that happens. All negative, all not helpful to me in anyway, previously I used to have a drink to shut the anxiety up but now I’ve been sober over 2 years I have to find other ways and to be honest in the long run the drink made it worse anyway. Exercise is so far the best way I’ve found to deal with it and also thinking the whole thing through to the end. How likely is the scenario that my brain has conjured up really to happen, if it did happen would I have done the article in the first place and the answer is yes.
Anxiety has been a factor all my life. I was told I was a very shy child but I now know I just suffered from anxiety, empathy and overthinking everything. I’m definitely not alone in this and it is something that can be made easier. I think realising your not alone is a huge step.
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